| ok, so I made a new journal.
cutters__club
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| Last night was fun. Hung out with Sarah! and Keegan! Woo!! I love Keegan so much, and Sarah sooo much...it's ridic. I hadn't seen both of them in a while so I was mucho mucho happy. I must have hugged and kissed Keegan like 50 times. Haha. Sarah got me shit from Florida and it's amazing. Giant sunglasses and "sensual" candles are fun times.
Work was very very bad today. I got my period hardcore and got wicked sick. I was having the worst pains of my life, I thought I was dying or something was bursting in my ovaries. I was on the verge of tears all day...and I sort of threw up in the bathroom. Needless to say, my boss (whom I love) sent me home like 3 hours early. Thanks, Deb. You're the greatest. And Nora too for helping me out when I was semi-puking.
Buuutttt I know where I'm living now! Weinstein Residence Hall biatch. In Washington Square. And I have AC!!! Hell yes. And I have two roomates. Megan from MA, and Rachael from NY. Yay. And by the way it is put in the letter, I think I have a single! Fuck yes.
P.S. - Last night, Sarah said Jade from AFI looks like a monkey. I happen to think he is the most gorgeous man ever put on this earth. Eff you, Sarah. Salsa. Yeah. You suck. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| Napoleon Dynamite = effing ridiculous. and i <3 it.
SARAH'S HOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Holy shit. Isn't that fantastic?
Yes, yes it is. | | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment |
| Ok. So this weekend my family decided I suck.
Sunday, I felt like shit and my fam wasn't helping that. So, I escaped. I drove around and went places (wink wink, nudge nudge). Erik is awesome, that's all I can say. Totally made my day a lot fuckin better.
Then, I got invited to go to Wrights Chicken Farm with J-ho, Meggles, Vin, and Pek. So, we go and get ourselves lost. Mhm. Took two hours to get there when it should have taken like and hour. I was fucking STARVING! So, we ate and it was yummy. And we talked of sex dreams, masturbation, and my vagina throughout the whole meal and drive home. We are amazing and you want to be friends with us. I will def. miss those kids for making me laugh all the time and totally making my day awesome.
Work today was sooooo tiring. I came home in a shitty mood and got in fights with my brother. Yeah. So, now my mom is nice and my brother hates me. Coolness. Dad must be next. I'm going through the whole family. One last hurray before I go away to college.
P.S.(this is for Pek.)
MY VAGINA IS FUCKING AWESOME!!!!! IT OWNS YOU!!!! | | comments: 6 comments or Leave a comment |
| Work sucked.
Weird incidents downtown.
Feeling sick to my stomach.
This is just not my day.
**....i think maybe i should go to Newbury Comics tonight and call Sarah. It would be funny, and make me happy. Maybe.** | | comments: Leave a comment |
| Effing staff meeting. I'm only gonna be working for like two more weeks anyway. Buuutttt I have to go or else they could try to fire me. Bullcrap.
No harvard square with Keegan. Boo. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| Quite the scare this morning. My brother was having an allergic reaction to some medicine and his heart rate was going crazy. Shit like that scares me, but I have to stay calm. Or else my mom freaks out. I hate having to be the calm one all the time, but it's life. Anyway, my brother is okay...but still. His heart isn't healthy. Stuff like that needs to never happen again.
Anyway....my brother said I look like a grandma today with the way I'm dressed. I don't think I do, although I am wearing my grandmothers old belt. Eh. Polo shirts and pinstriped pants do not equal grandma. Maybe it's the gold shoes. Maybe.
My mom criticizes my make-up all the time. I'm getting sick of her calling me 'scary' all the time when i wear eyeliner. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| Just a quick one:
-i'm a stalker....oh yes.
-i would go lesbian for Angelina Jolie. in a heart beat.
-free shit rules like whoa....thanks J-Ho.
-my vagina is awesome. respect.
-Diego Luna needs to marry me.
-little kids were not behaving well today. boo. hopefully they'll be better next time i work.
-ineedaboy.
The End. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| Saw I,Robot AGAIN.
Sarah leaves for Florida tomorrow. I won't be seeing her hardly at all the rest of the summer. This makes me extremely sad. She is my life. Bull. Shit. Life is stupid.
I need to hang out with Keegan...and Jess sometime soon. I'm only working two days next week, which is nice cause those kids totally wear me out. Daycare is crazy. But they're cute, so I don't mind. Especially Sarah L. I want to steal her. Cuteness like whoa. Oh, and Katie C. is like my 5 year old twin. Fucking awesome. I love her.
so, yeah. I said I'd show you my hair. So, here:
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| Random Discoveries of the Day:
-myself and Sarah are making a film now.
-TBS is once again a favorite of mine.
-I NEED TO GO TO NEWBURY COMICS MORE OFTEN!!!!! (i have my reasons...)
-I'm sketchy and a liar (haha).
-Sarah and I are completely amused by really dumb things.
-I need to grow some balls. (GROW dammit!...haha)
-Why is it that white vans are always the escape vehicle of kidnappers and rapists? | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| Last night was cool.
I saw I, Robot with Rumple and J-ho. It was a good time. It is a wicked nasty movie. I officially love Will Smith to the max. Also, I was pondering this. Why is it that whenever the world is in danger a black man always saves it? And why is that black man always Will Smith? Hm...
Went over J-ho's house after and Meggles, Katifer, Alifer, Trist, Maggie, and Vin came over too. We watched the redsox and played Uno. I scared the crap out of everyone with my random swearing.
for example, I had to draw cards to find a red one and I could not find one for the life of me. So, I got fed up and randomly shouted "fuckin cunts!" Needless to say everyone in the room was like "What the fuck?" It was rather amusing. I never used to swear like I do now. I think it's cuz of Sarah and Keegan. Keegan rubs off on me, and the fact that Sarah doesn't swear just drives the urge to swear more. Oh well.
Then, I got to feeling kinda crappy and decided Rumple should drive me home before I passed out on J-ho's chair.
Then, I passed out on my couch for a little and then watched The Days. That show is amazing. I heart it. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| You mess with my friends, you mess with me. Nough said.
Um, yeah. I almost cut today, and I dont know why. I just felt sad and had the urge. But I stopped myself, so I'm proud. Go me.
I really miss a lot of people. Ana, Ali, Emily, etc.
But most of all I really Really REALLY MISS WADE AND JESS!!!! AAAHHHHHHH. I haven't talk to them since like March. It's ridiculous. I called Jess and left a message on her phone and sent them both emails. I really hope they write/call back. I feel so fucking lost without my friends. I feel like I'm dissconnected from so many people now that I don't want to be dissconnected from. Ugh. I hate the summer. People drift in the summer. I hate myself for letting this happen.
I can't listen to HotHotHeat without thinking of Wade. Boo. I miss him so much. I just want to die. What happened to getting married and being ridiculously polish together? Those were good times. I miss them.
And now, I think I'm gonna cry.
Jess/Wade, if you see this, call me...or something.
EDIT: I truly am on my Eight of Nine. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| I bleached out the front of my hair again.
I'll get pics soon.
Sarah dyed her tips PINK. they're so hott. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| Choose a band/artist and answer only in song titles by that band.
The Cardigans
Are you female or male:: heartbreaker
Describe yourself:: iron man
How do some people feel about you:: losers
How do you feel about yourself:: lovefool
Describe your ex girlfriend/boyfriend:: been it
Describe your current girlfriend/boyfriend:: your new cuckoo
Describe where you want to be:: great divide
Describe what you want to be:: never recover
Describe how you live:: grand turismo 300
Describe how you love:: step on me
Share a few words of wisdom:: choke
i'm bored.....so here.
These hospital walls are the pales of white.
Here in this desert they're reciting my last rites.
The smell of these halls brings temporary comfort
as the oxygen flows through my blood.
El corazon was poisoned tonight...
She's on her Eight of Nine.
When half of all your prayers are insincere,
the other half are lies.
Here is this watermark under this bridge.
The point where it all crested,
rolled back and drifted into the sea.
I climb from this wreckage
as the smoke begins to clear from my lungs.
The closest of close calls has happened tonight.
It's time that I made things right
for the first time since the last time.
Let this moment of clarity
lift this curse that has been cast upon me.
Appreciate the good times, but don't take the worst for granted.
'Cause you only get so many second chances. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| hey now, lets not get weirded out.
so what if i don't masturbate?
i'm still normal...just not as sexually frustrated as everyone else. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| I've been working a lot. It's okay though, the kids are wicked cute. But I haven't been able to see my favorite yet this week :-( His name is Michael, and he is adorable. He told me about how he doesn't like going outside, cuz he doesn't like getting dirty. So cute and funny. I wish he was my child.
Missed Sarah going to see Sexy Steve and Alec. Total bummer. I really wished I had gone. Boo. But Sarah and I hung out anyway last night. We went to Borders to get me coffee and Best Buy for her to return parts. We need to hang out at Borders more often, because hot boys hang out there...even if they do have girlfriends. We can still look right??? It's not like I'd do anything. I'm too shy. I might have last night though, I was so tired I just didn't care and made a total ass of myself everywhere we went. It was fun.
I so need to start taking my video camera with me everywhere I go now. Sarah is too awesome, and we need our ridiculous antics on tape so I can watch them years from now and laugh at how stupid I was.
Best Part of the Night:
Me: "Sarah, I'll buy you something if you just choose."
Sarah: "I want a cookie, but I don't know what kind."
Me: "Well, you have to choose, I'm next in line."
Sarah: "But I'm fat and there are so many choices!" (not really spoken, but whined...and she was holding her stomach too. wicked funny.....you had to be there.) | | comments: Leave a comment |
| Shit dude.
Yesterday was the most interesting day of my life. Hectic, yes. Fun, yes. Gross, yes. But most of all, interesting.
Ok, so it starts of with me and Sarah trying to find Keegan house, which ends up being behind another house. So, of course, we drive by a bunch of times before we actually see it at all. Anyways, we get there, Keegans in his pajamas. So, he needs to go shower while me and Sarah check out his room. While he is picking out clothes and such we end up talking about how me and Sarah are the most virginal people EVER. And Keegan finds this funny and decides to attack me with a vibrator. Granted I'm not afraid of a vibrator in anyway, it's just that a vibrator in the hands of Keegan is very scary (especially when he hit in the back of the head with it.). So finally we leave. We get to the T and it's not working. So we drive around to all these other stations trying to find a place to park. We meet some of Keegans friends who are very very nice and lovely. Finally we get on a Newton Center and have to take a bus to Kenmore. The bus has no AC and is extremely slow. We are late now. So, finally we get on the T, then we get off and walk to Jackson Mann. We get there and it is packed. We are thinking it is sold out at this point. So we wait in line forever and actually do get in. We were like the last people to get in before it was sold out. The guy behind us was technically the last person to get in. Mhm. So yeah. The show was great. Cave In sucked immensely, but Converge was great. I got hit alot, but I did mosh for Sarah's viewing pleasure along with all the HUGE hardcore guys. By the end of the show we found Keegan again and he looked like shit. He said he had a migraine. So finally all of us get outside and Keegan goes to get food. Me and Sarah and Keegans friends go to Store 24 to get snacks. We get back and Keegan is sitting against the wall looking sooo sick. His eyes were like rolling in his head and he couldn't sit up at all. So, I'm like "we need to get you home, right now." So we get him up and moving and start heading to the T. I think we got about a block down when Keegan started throwing up. He puked like 4 times :( My poor baby. Finally we get to the T. Keegan liked slept on the T. Then we had to get another bus. Keegan slept there too. Finally we get to my car. I tell Keegan to tell me if he's gonna be sick, cuz there is no puking in my car. Buuttt we made to his house successfully. I hope he feels better. I've never seen him like that before. My poor love. Then I drove Keegans friends home cuz it was on the way back home for me and Sarah anyway. They were really cool, I hope to see them again. Me and Sarah eventually made it home, after I broke like every traffic violation EVER. I ran so many stop lights and signs. I pulled u-turns when I wasn't supposed to. I went up one ways the wrong way. I did so many other horrible things, I'm so surprised I didn't get pulled over. But I didn't care, I just wanted to get home cuz I felt like shit. Finally I made it home wicked late, and crashed in bed. Today I woke up, ate some pancakes, helped out my mom, and got dressed.
It was an interesting night. Crappy, funny, stressful, and interesting. | | comments: 5 comments or Leave a comment |
| First day of work was good.
I have favorites already. The little emo child wasn't there today :-( Boo. Oh well. I made two cute friends anyway. Danielle and Anupama. They're both girls, and both 3 years old. Too cute and very shy. I guess I connect well with the shy ones, because I was once a shy kid too.
then...I don't know what happened. I turned into and idiot I guess. Oh well.
My mom got me a coffee cuz she is awesome like that.
NYU is being stupid about my health insurance and bullshit. Damn big schools, not keeping track of ANYTHING! Eh.
I do and don't want summer to be over.
Oh and guess what????
I'm awesome and listening to Good Charlotte right now! That's right bitches!!! I'm fucking fantastic. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| You know what's hotness times a thousand?
Hanging out with Ian and Sarah.
That's right, bitches. | | comments: Leave a comment |
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